7 September 2006
7 September 2006
Dear Diary... I am sorry I've neglected you over the past few days, but I've been terribly busy trying to sort out my life.
I haven't been able to do so though - and I've also realised that it is not something that I can in one day 
one day at a time....
Nothing is as real as a dream. The world can change around you, but your dream will not. Responsibilities need not erase it. Duties need not obscure it. Because the dream is within you, no one can take it away.
25 August 2006
I had a bearded dragon - her name was Cloe. She died in my hands this morning. She was very sick for a very long time, but she fought so hard to stay alive..
We've tried everything possible - but it wasn't meant to be.
Cloe - my little 'fighter'
I’ve only known you a while my friend
My little fighter, right until the endMy tears couldn’t stop the pain you were feeling
But in Heaven’s arms you are now kneeling
21 August 2006
21 August 2006
I've been to church yesterday (for the first time in a long, long time)... we were told how we live in prison cells, because of our sins and the way we live, etc.. and then God forgives those sins and opens the prison door.. but we still stay inside. We live our lives in a prison cell with an open door...
I think it is very true.
My life (as I first described it) - is a story with a lot of scribble in it. But the scribbles are slowly but surely starting to take on shapes. Some of these shapes are going to require some input from my side... but they have to wait until I'm ready.
I know God will not give me anything I can't handle. I just wish that He didn't trust me so much.
Mother Teresa (1910 - 1997)
15 August 2006
15 August 2006
Change
I've been on holiday, had a haircut, lost weight and today I'm playing in a golf tournament (and this does not mean that I am good at playing golf!!)... all for the sake of change!
Why do we need change in our lives?
Is it because we get bored with what we have?
I feel like a hypocrite. One moment I want everything in my life to be constant... reliable... even secure. And as soon as I have all those things in place I need (rather 'want') a change!!
Can somebody please explain this to me????
Poetry is when an emotion has found its thought and the thought has found words - Robert Frost
08 August 2006
8 August 2006
Today is a good day.
I haven't quite established why yet... but it is good. I feel good. I think I feel loved in a way...
Tomorrow is National Woman's Day in South Africa, which means we have a public holiday! And I only have to go back to work on Monday - which makes it even better!
A few of us girls are going to celebrate being women in a different fashion this year... we are having a bingo night! Never played it before - do not even know what it is about (except there are numbers)... I am going along for the good food, good wine and good conversation!
Happy are those who dream dreams and are ready to pay the price to make them come true.
Leon J. Suenes
6 August 2006
a whole weekend has passed without writing anything in my diary-blog...
to be very honest - i don't have much to say today... I have that 'empty' feeling you get sometimes...
I am going to try to find something to fill me up again
Mind, Heart & Soul
I find | & heart | Let soul |
2 August 2006
It is snowing in Johannesburg! In my 28 years of life I have never seen snow! (I must admit that I didn't actually see any snow today - but it is the closest I've ever been...)
I love the winter! Everything seems to be slower during the winter - people are slower at being nasty or angry or unhappy... it is as if everybody thinks twice before doing something, because they have more time during winter... they are not being rushed by the summer fad
(don't get me wrong - I LOVE the summer as well!)
But - the winter is almost over and so all the 'slow' things I've been pondering over these past couple of months...
My poem for today... snow, of course! ;-)
Dust of Snow
The way a crow
Shook down on me
The dust of snow
From a hemlock tree
Has given my heart
A change of mood
And saved some part
Of a day I had rued.
1 August 2006
1 August 2006
Today is a rainy, depressing winter day in South Africa. I am sick in bed with 'strep pharangytis' and feel really miserable... When you are in bed all by yourself for a day you tend to think about life and the meaning of life and why things are the way they are…
So this is my quote for today…
“Be patient toward all that is unsolved in your heart and try to love the questions themselves. Live the questions now. Perhaps you will find them gradually, without noticing it, live along some distant day into the answer.” Rainer Maria Rilke
31 July 2006
My poem for today is actually a song by Lucie Silvas (hopefully it doesn't sound too depressing...), but the words in this song is very true. When you are in any situation in life, it is because you chose to be there...
"What You're Made Of"Just like I predicted, we're at the point of no return
We can go backwards, and no corners have been turned
I can't control it, if I sink or if I swim
'Cause I chose the waters that I'm in
And it makes no difference who is right or wrong
I deserve much more than this
'Cause there's only one thing I want
If it's not what you're made of
You're not what I'm looking for
You were willing but unable to give me anymore
There's no way,
You're changing,
Cause some things will just never be mine,
You're not in love this time...but it's alright.
I hear you talking, but your words don't mean a thing
I doubt you ever put your heart into anything
It's not much to ask for, to get back what I put in
But I chose the waters that I'm in
And it makes no difference who is right or wrong
I deserve much more than this
'Cause there's only one thing I want
If it's not what you're made of
You're not what I'm looking for
You were willing but unable to give me anymore
There's no way,
You're changing,
Cause some things will just never be mine
You're not in love this time...but it's alright.
What's your definition of the one?
What do you really want him to become?
No matter what I sacrifice it's still never enough.
Just like I predicted
I will sink before I swim
'Cause these are the waters that I'm in
If it's not what you're made of
You're not what I'm looking for
You were willing, but unable to give me anymore
There's no way,
You're changing,
'Cause some things will just never be mine
You're not in love this time.
Oh, if it's not what you're made of
You're not what I'm looking for
You were willing, but unable to give me anymore
There's no way,
You're changing,
'Cause some things will just never be mine
You're not in love this time
A poem a day...
Most of our lives are like storybooks. Mine is a lot of scribble at the moment...
What I try to do (to help keep me sane) is to find a poem/song/quote to reflect the way I am feeling at any specific point in time. I now decided to put a poem/song/quote on the blog everyday to match the way I am feeling (it's almost like keeping a diary...) - if I go back to any specific day, I'll be able to remember the way I felt...
Maybe one day I'll be able to put my own poems here...
WineLovePoetry